visible voice

Written by Dona at 8:16 PM | |

My bloging personality

Here what I found about my blogging personality.

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate
You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.
You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.
You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!
A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

How about yours?

Written by Dona at 1:51 PM | |

July 16, 2005

Follow

Just follow where it flows. I don't need to fight the wave. It's not that worth it anyway. Some thing's wrong with my sleeping pattern. I hardly sleep at night. Maybe it's because things are getting on and off. And why do I keep wondering every thing's avoiding me, like nothing deserves to be mine? It's just prejudice, so unprofessional of me for thinking that way. Hell, talking about professionalism makes me feel pitty of ~~her~~ someone. It pisses me off. Damn I hate thinking about this. I'm out.

Written by Dona at 1:43 AM | |

March 07, 2005

menangis boleh??

Menangis boleh?

I'm feeling so exhausted, first it's because I haven't got proper sleep these last few weeks, and second is because I cried few times today. Feeling depressed. Lots of works to do. I have an exam in 2 days, but I haven't even touch any of the material. Everything's a mess. My mother comes, but I don't spend much time for her. Supposedly, we submitted our project today. At the first place we thought that there would be an extention for us, but only today we know there's no such thing as extention and we got to pay for penalty for the delay of our submission. Never happened like this before in my life. Now I should finish the project soon or my marks would be less and less each day I haven't submitted. Mind with branches for I should study soon for my paper. I should finish my layout and my 3D is a bit sick. I just can't stand. Menangis boleh?

Written by Dona at 6:59 PM | |

February 14, 2005

Lack of Concentration

I can't concentrate well these days. Gotta help myself because this is one of the major projects of self destruction. That would make me left far away behind. I'm not showing a good progress in academic, especially the progress in design. Yea hell. I mean I'm damn bad, very bad. My mind just wanders.

I found this on internet. One of the technique used for concentration is "be here now". That a bit helps me. blah. Supposed I'm doing my drawing, but I'm adding an entry and downloading mp3s instead.

Written by Dona at 6:04 PM | |

January 16, 2005

track

Still on the track with what's going on earth, especially what had happended in Aceh and other tsunami-stricken countries in Asia. Yes,including the place I'm staying now, Penang. Wondering how the children orphaned by the quake would survive and live their lives after this. Apart from that, I'm fine, alhamdulillah.

Just for a track of me, I'll be working with a new layout soon. insyaAllah

Written by Dona at 5:45 AM | |

January 09, 2005

still here

Nearly a year and I haven't given a damn to this diary. I love it. It's just a matter of procrastination and my very own hard-to-throw-away laziness. I'm still here though.

Written by Dona at 10:22 AM | |

February 27, 2004

Sleeping beauty just woke up :)

Absence in cyber world for quite long. But I've been online a lot these days. Got internet connection at my room, I'm using wireless USB adapter. I need a break sometimes. So no one can blame me of being online for the whole night. Anyway I stay up for studying and doing my endless works.

So, I'm busy preparing for exams. I need to continue studying after graduate from this part one. I have to be able to continue, I have to. I'm going to have an interview, prepare my portfolio and lots of important stuffs to do, including another 3-month practical training. I'm not going back home this long holiday. Well, it's not even going to be a holiday for me..

If I don't get this part 2, I will probably get a job first :( things which could be a nightmare for me. Assistent architecture only, but ... don't know, life full of stress. Still I wannna stay here in Uni for I'm going to join next semester's IMT-GT! I met my tennis coach yesterday. She said I should join the competition this December, play for the university. She said this time they're going to hold it in Thailand. So, I should get part 2 and keep being in tennis squad. I should.

Written by Dona at 11:39 AM | |

November 04, 2003

Just showing a reply to my friend's email. It's wise if I choose not to give her name here. Let's say she is Anabella. What a pretty nice name, huh! ;)
(inspired by Sean Paul's Get Busy) *Yucks* sorry to Sean's fans, but his song is enough to make me sick.

.......

Dearest Anabella,
Assalamualaikum
Regarding food, I'd rather prefer malaysian's. I love all masak lemak and spicy food. Nyum.. but here my mom cooks for us, so I still can taste M'sian food. Actually to be true, I like staying in M'sia. Especially when we drive. Jakarta is hectic, crowded, poluted and just enough to annoys everyone. But there's no place like home. No matter what it is or how it is, home is still the best place. One of the most important things for me is I got my privacy a lot. And I don't have to deal with any of my roommates' friends especially when I'm tired, I don't have to worry about sharing filthy toilets or being disturbed when I sleep early. You know, every time I sleep early, which is very very rare, there must be something or somebody that would bother me. When I'm really into my projects I sometimes don't have enough rest, I even don't sleep for (if I'm able) at least 2-3 days. And once I got the time to have a rest, I'd use the chance for sure. Well, I do go to bed as early as 10pm which is of course too early for budak asrama. But it becomes a must for me or I'd be living like a zombie. And most of my roommates' friends don't understand it, maybe they think I'm a kind of lazy or what that they don't even bother someone's sleeping. They'd talk noisily or make things that make me uncomfortable. But thank God both of my roommates understand me, and things like that didn't always happen.

One more thing I like to be in Indonesia is I don't hear the word "indon". God I hate that word. How come everyone there is lazy enough to pronounce Indonesia as a whole word. Well at least it sounds much nicer. I don't know about other countries, but in M'sia people are taught to have prejudice of Indonesians. We just can't run away from it. Even if my mom's a malay, so are my cousins and other relatives; and even most of my friends and people who know me don't do that to me, but still I feel offended.

Well, I hope now you know how I feel. Till later, good bye :)
With love,
Dona

----- Original Message -----
From: "Anabella"
[dutch_@****.com]
Date: Fri, 31 Oct 2003 07:35:54 +0000
To: me_@post.com
Subject: Re:Hi!

> Dearest Dona,
> Geez... if I were to spend Ramadhan back home, the only thing I'll be excited about is the food!! Yeah, I don't have any friends back home, so I usually die out of boredom.I do miss the food alot. hmmm if my guess is correct, you seem to prefer to be in Indonesia rather than in Malaysia, even though your mother is malay. Is that correct? Geez.. in my case,even though I'm a pure Indonesian, I don't have, what u call, a sense of patrioticism or whatever. Maybe b'coz I've lived most of my life overseas, and that every time I'm at home, I encounter things that frustrates me alot. Well, I can't tell u what it is, but that all makes me like that...and I prefer to live overseas than in Indonesia... I dunno why I've b'come like this! Even my mother had to make my IC without my consent, coz I really don't want to!

I'm online at the library, coz I do need to search for books too, as well as surf through the net. Okay gotta go, take care and selamat berpuasa! >

> With love,
> Anabella

Written by Dona at 10:20 PM | |

October 31, 2003

I'm such a lazy creature. Stop.. stop I'd start with Happy Ramadhan! May you have a wonderful, nice, peaceful Ramadhan. (punkt)

Start from the beginning.. I should have slapped myself for being very lazy. This is Ramadhan, well I'm supposed to be more.. (what to say) anything la except LAZY. It's a common case when I'm at home. I can be very dependent and spoil.

So, currently I'm at home. This is one of the shortest semester break I ever had. But glad to notice that I'm nearly at the edge of my final year which insyaAllah will be my part one. Got the second part and supposedly it will take another 2 years. It's quite frightening because I have to compete to take my 4th year. Of course Dona, competition is every where! And great, now I suddenly have the idea that Ramadhan is the time when we got the chance to pray. Well, you can pray every day but this time would be the best moment.

So this 3-week holiday is not as bad as it sounds. I was just being too much. A part from my laziness, I'm quite relaxed and enjoying myself. Next week the new semester will start and again, I have to deal with my hectic and stressful-as-usual life. So I think I know the best thing to do right now. I have to do the things that I slightly can do when I get back to campus. I'm not going to be lazy again. (I feel like a 7 year old who's promising to her mom). See, inspiration comes. I usually got inspirations when I'm writing or when I'm praying (sholat). No wonder it's a bit hard for me to khusyuk :|

Written by Dona at 9:47 AM | |

October 15, 2003

English mode: off.

Lama amat ga ngisi diary. Sibuk bgt. Skarang lagi ujian, belum abis.. mana paper bahasa melayu lagi.. BT bgt sumpah. Hari sabtu, petang lagi! Skarang gabung sama varisty, tennis squad. Seharusnya ikut MASUM(Majelis Sukan Malaysia) buat wakilin USM n perginya hr jumat, tapi karna blm abis ujian terpaksa dianter unit sukan sabtu sore. Bakal ketinggalan satu game sih, tapi yg penting pergi. Capek banget training... Besok lagi full training. We'll be having 3-session training! Pagi, siang, malam! Siang tengah hari, mama.. Semakin gosonk! Selama study week sama ujian mana ada pegang raket. Lama ga exercise kyknya capek amat..

Rivaldo, gw inget la. Gw mo masuk website lo belum bisa. Cjb-nya mungkin lg ada problem. Apa salah nulis alamat? Skarang dmana lo? Jurusan apa? Iya gw di sini. Ambil arsitektur.

Written by Dona at 9:23 PM | |

July 06, 2003

new semester

Everything's gone so fast. My 10 week practical training was over and I'm very glad to realize that. Yes, finally I've finished it. I had gone back home, had met my parents, my younger sister, some old fellows and had seen the new renovated home, that was before I started my new semester. This new term has been about a month already. I've got a new room. My roommates are both very fine. This time, both are Muslims which is a lot easier for me. I just can't believe that this year is actually supposed to be my final year. Ooops. I'm the senior. But it's a pity that I don't feel my ability is at the level which a final year student should have. I'm afraid of everything, as usual. The next studio projects look pretty tough and the competitors look tough, too. Everything's tough, except me. Things that make me up is that I've joined German class finally. Guten tag! Ich bin Dona. Und du?. The Lehrerin is quite nice. I pretty like her. Deutsch is very much interesting. I like learning new languages. Last semester I took Mandarin. It was only 1st level, I don't want to stop there. I think I'll take another Mandarin class this semester. It's not a university option just an offer for those who're interested. And I got tennis as my co-curriculum, and guess what, the coach has already asked me to be one of those university varsities. Perasan. I'm not sure whether I wanna take it or not as, hello! this is final year, be focused! But really I never thought of throwing up this chance. For as far as I concerned, they're preparing the athletes for MASUM. The last time I joined any competition was basketball. That was to represent our hostel, just a small campus' event. MASUM is to delegate university, this one is a national event, all universities in M'sia.. Well, leave that for a while.

Back to the studio projects. What worries me so much is that we're not allowed to use computer for our project presentation anymore. This year, student should be able to concentrate on sketching. Frighten me a lot, coz I can't draw. Don't be confused, I'm an architecture student who doesn't have any talent to draw. It's ironic. Memang. My last semester's studio improved a lot because students were free to do what they feel good for them. I was in specialised studio. It's not a general studio where everyone learns general architectural aspects. This special studio needs student to concentrate on only certain things. Take for an example if you want to learn more about architectural lighting, or energy efficient buildings, or thermal comfort, or sustainable wetlands architecture, then be focused on what you're learning. It's very interesting, because you know more about these things which teach you to be an expert of certain field later. What's more interesting is that these specialised studio students are free to express their ideas, no limitation. We can explore. The more we explore the more knowledge we get. I think the only strength I got is computer. But it's not anymore, because there's no specialised studio this year, no more. And they want us to sketch. I feel like a first year student again. *Crying with no tear* I can't draw!

Written by Dona at 12:39 p.m. | |

May 26, 2003

Truth can be painful

I haven't updated for quite a long period of time. Sometimes I'm sick of writing this diary. I actually don't really write about my thoughts, especially all the things I see in my life. I'm talking about fake. Wait, don't get me wrong. I don't lie, in fact I hate lying. I never made up my life journey. So, the stuffs I ever wrote here were actually the real things. What I'm trying to say is that this is all about controlling. It's just most of the stuffs I write are only about 'what happened' not about 'what I thought'. I'm never satisfied of this. Of course, a diary is supposed to be something in your mind. I don't write lots of things, simply because I'm such a coward. Sometimes, we do have to be very careful. A word can be sharper than a sword, isn't it? And what's in my mind is something that people don't have to know. Because I'm afraid it could just bring the bad sides. Truth can be very painful. Life is so pathetic, we all know that. Good writers are supposed to be able to write with their good skills telling people with no offense. Well, I'm just not one of them. Rasulullah has ever said "say something good, or be silent". But I guess I should really learn to speak up though it wouldn't be as easy as what I think. Need more time. Ready to fight for the truth? I think I am, but only on the diary in my drawer which is locked properly.

Written by Dona at 8:50 p.m. | |